I cannot emphasize enough how dangerous and damaging it is to be constantly comparing ourselves to other people. This can be applied for ANYTHING, such as wealth, houses, clothing, etc. but I tend to compare my body to others’ all the time and it’s a habit I need to break.
Yesterday, I had felt pretty good all day and went to spin class after work. Well, there was a girl in class who was really skinny…she looked like one of those people who is just naturally skinny, but I don’t want to assume anything about her, so who knows. Anyways, she was right next to me in class, and since the whole room is mirrored, I would catch glances of her in the mirror whenever I looked at myself to see how my form was. And everytime, all I saw on myself was fat and how much bigger I was compared to her. I tried to stop looking, but it was a compulsion, I couldn’t stop! By the end of class, I was hating my body. The thing that saved me was the last song, which was a sprint and I pushed myself REALLY hard and was proud of myself.
After class, I needed to take the time to ground myself and think of how far I’ve come fitness-wise and reassess my mindset. For so long, I wanted to be stick thin. Instead of looking at my body for muscle, I would look at it and want to see bones sticking out–that’s what I was striving for. That may sound sick and disgusting, but it is the honest truth. Through running and doing strength exercises, I have tried to focus on building muscle and looking HEALTHY, not skinny. But, obviously, I’m not perfect, and sometimes I do slip back into that mindset of wanting to look like a bony, unhealthy person instead of someone who is fit and strong.
On a different note, I did a different kind of running workout this morning! I thought I would switch it up since I typically just decide a mileage and go out and run. I ran about 1.5 miles to a hill near my apartment, then sprinted up the hill, and ran easy down it. Then I turned around and kept doing the same thing up and down the hill until I hit a mile and then ran back home. It was a really fun challenge, and I definitely want to do it again! Hopefully I can find a bigger hill, because the one I live by is kind of wimpy.
I also wanted to share my breakfast from this morning because for once, it wasn’t oats! I’m definitely a creature of habit and eat overnight oats or oatmeal almost every day. I start preparing them at night without even thinking about it sometimes! Today I had a yogurt bowl to switch it up and because a friend on Instagram sent me some samples of a new granola, which I really ended up liking!
This was a Fage 0% Greek yogurt topped with 1/2 banana, raspberries, and San Franola California Raisin granola. I REALLY like this granola! The company advertises simple ingredients, low sugar, and high fiber. Flavor was definitely not sacrificed because it was delicious! Definitely recommend, I linked them above, plus they have free shipping which I always appreciate!
Well that’s it for today (if you’ve made it this far)! Happy Thursday!