Comparison is the Thief of Joy

I cannot emphasize enough how dangerous and damaging it is to be constantly comparing ourselves to other people. This can be applied for ANYTHING, such as wealth, houses, clothing, etc. but I tend to compare my body to others’ all the time and it’s a habit I need to break.

Yesterday, I had felt pretty good all day and went to spin class after work. Well, there was a girl in class who was really skinny…she looked like one of those people who is just naturally skinny, but I don’t want to assume anything about her, so who knows. Anyways, she was right next to me in class, and since the whole room is mirrored, I would catch glances of her in the mirror whenever I looked at myself to see how my form was. And everytime, all I saw on myself was fat and how much bigger I was compared to her. I tried to stop looking, but it was a compulsion, I couldn’t stop! By the end of class, I was hating my body. The thing that saved me was the last song, which was a sprint and I pushed myself REALLY hard and was proud of myself.

After class, I needed to take the time to ground myself and think of how far I’ve come fitness-wise and reassess my mindset. For so long, I wanted to be stick thin. Instead of looking at my body for muscle, I would look at it and want to see bones sticking out–that’s what I was striving for. That may sound sick and disgusting, but it is the honest truth. Through running and doing strength exercises, I have tried to focus on building muscle and looking HEALTHY, not skinny. But, obviously, I’m not perfect, and sometimes I do slip back into that mindset of wanting to look like a bony, unhealthy person instead of someone who is fit and strong.

On a different note, I did a different kind of running workout this morning! I thought I would switch it up since I typically just decide a mileage and go out and run. I ran about 1.5 miles to a hill near my apartment, then sprinted up the hill, and ran easy down it. Then I turned around and kept doing the same thing up and down the hill until I hit a mile and then ran back home. It was a really fun challenge, and I definitely want to do it again! Hopefully I can find a bigger hill, because the one I live by is kind of wimpy.

I also wanted to share my breakfast from this morning because for once, it wasn’t oats! I’m definitely a creature of habit and eat overnight oats or oatmeal almost every day. I start preparing them at night without even thinking about it sometimes! Today I had a yogurt bowl to switch it up and because a friend on Instagram sent me some samples of a new granola, which I really ended up liking!

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This was a Fage 0% Greek yogurt topped with 1/2 banana, raspberries, and San Franola California Raisin granola. I REALLY like this granola! The company advertises simple ingredients, low sugar, and high fiber. Flavor was definitely not sacrificed because it was delicious! Definitely recommend, I linked them above, plus they have free shipping which I always appreciate!

Well that’s it for today (if you’ve made it this far)! Happy Thursday!

Full Day of Eating

Here is a look at a typical day of eating for me! I’m trying not to count calories this week and listen to my body instead. I would guess that this is between 1500-1800 calories. I did Kayla Itsines BBG week 3 arms and abs in the morning and went to spin after work. I sometimes use a Polar watch with heart rate monitor, and according to that, I burned 1114 calories yesterday with both of those workouts combined. I don’t know how completely accurate those are, I just like to see where my heart rate is! So I still just eat to satisfy my hunger and not to eat back calories. But I’ve definitely realized that when I push myself so hard in my workouts, I can’t survive off of 1200 calories or less! Anyways, here is my food diary from yesterday:

Breakfast was overnight oats (1/2 cup old fashioned oats mixed with 1/2 cup almond milk and some cinnamon, stirred and left in the fridge overnight. In the morning, I added banana slices, strawberries, and about 1 tablespoon of Buff Bake birthday cake almond butter). I ate this around 8:45 am when I got to work after doing BBG first thing in the morning.

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Lunch (around 12:30 pm) I usually eat a variation of this lunch every day at work. It’s easy to pack and I like it! I pack a salad of romaine lettuce, spinach, shredded carrots, grilled chicken, avocado, and add balsamic vinaigrette dressing. I also had a gala apple.

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Snack 1 (around 2:30pm) was green grapes and a Chobani Simply 100 yogurt. I really like these yogurts! This snack was good because it satisfied my sweet tooth, but didn’t cause me to crash later. IMG_0860[1]

Snack 2 (around 4pm): Yes, I usually have 2 afternoon snacks! For some reason, I can last all morning without a snack, but I get more hungry in the afternoon. My director got an entire case of these Suja juices sent to her, so it was like Christmas for me! I took 3 of them to have throughout the week (she probably had 40 of them). I had never tried this flavor before, and really liked it! I didn’t finish it, so I’ll probably have the rest today. IMG_1039[1]

Dinner was a Trader Joe’s Thai sweet chili veggie burger (SO yummy! This was my last one, so I definitely need to get more), roasted broccoli and grape tomatoes, and about 1/2 cup cooked quinoa with Pita Pal original hummus. Love this dinner and it was so easy to prepare!IMG_1041[1]

Dessert was a Lenny and Larry’s white chocolate macadamia complete cookie. I love these because I loveee cookies and these at least have protein in them. I kind of struggled to be honest because I wasn’t sure if I was actually hungry or just wanted dessert, so I debated eating this. But I also didn’t want to wake up in the middle of the night hungry so that’s partially why I had it too. Sometimes I cut them in half since 1 serving is actually only half of the cookie, but I just ate the whole thing and didn’t feel too full afterwards. Night time is definitely the hardest for me in terms of intuitive eating.

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I love reading food diaries/ what people eat in a day because I think it’s really interesting and I always get good ideas from people. Hope this post is helpful! I definitely think I will do more of these, I try to post them on my Instagram every Wednesday for What I Ate Wednesday.